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Thursday, 09 July 2009

  • I went into work trying to keep my head held high.  I was trying to make sure I was looking up and maybe my looking physically up would help my mind to look up as well.  The sun was so bright I was squinting so I couldn't really see well anyway   I was not clocked in but for a full minute when our store manager came looking for people to check up front.  I spent my first 2 and a half hours on a register.  It really sucked!  But they only had 1 cashier scheduled because another manager told them to not come in.  Why they did that was because our store was down 25 percent on the holiday.  So they have cut hours even though they already had cut everyone a day for holiday pay in the store.  So basically they are double cutting the store.  We only get paid time and a half on holidays cut a hole day and it's already delt with cut more hours and your digging into normal pay. 
    Corse during my 3 days off this week I decided I would start back at the gym and made an appointment to get looked at and pay the fines and all.  Corse I walk in today and hear this is going to be for several months this cutting time.  So i make the quick decision to cut that out again.  I called when I came back home to cancell the check out.  I'm also returning the stuff I bought at kohl's to work out in.  Yes new outfit for working out in was necessary.  I never buy clothes but this year I've bought so much because all my other clothes has holes in it from being worn so much. 
    So the next few weeks/months we'll see how things go.  I'm hoping it picks up a little.  I don't like my new schedule and all it's weird hours...  they seem to think if they have you come in during 15 or 30 minute increments that they can save money.  It just makes my alarm clock wigg out.
    In other good news I have almost saved up my 3 months emergency fund in case I lose my income. 

  • dream

    I had cluttered dreams last night.  Looking above a green map of the world and putting my little clear compass like thing above cities talking to people that live there like I was right above them and then moving on to other cities.  Being in a bus with former classmates and teachers amazed they remembered me.  Being at a hotel trying to solve a mystery about time travel and where the next clue was and where the 3rd floor had disappeared to.  Like a vortex had ate it and all we had to do was walk threw.  Little kittens and family guy marathons which I really don't care for and moving myself into the living room because someone else wanted to watch.  And the little kittens kept running around disappearing...  they were a handful.

Wednesday, 08 July 2009

  • Took Coco to the vet to have his shots this morning only to find there was another computer glitch and his shots aren't due for several more months.  There were some crazy cats in the waiting room that live at the vets and they were doing acrobatics around Coco.  I'm sure it was very exciting for him   especially since he can't decide if he's afraid of cats or wants to eat one.
    I've been watching America's Got talent tonight.  Very uplifting stuff... except for the toe dancer (could have lived without seeing that).  It's basically a huge talent contest where anyone can enter with any type of talent from singing/dancing to magic acts and dunking basketballs while doing acrobatics.  Just insane stuff...  I like it. 


Tuesday, 07 July 2009

  • The other day I dreamed of these little munchkin like people throwing little stars all over the heavens.  It was so beautiful.  It was they're specific job to take stars out of little bags and throw them around.  It seemed to be a never ending bag of stars too because it was never to be thrown away and never to be empty.  And the light gathered all around them the more they threw.  It was amazing in it's simplicity.  Reminded me a little of the Lucky Charms comercial when I was little.  Exactly the shape of those stars... maybe they truely were made out of marshmellows?  I doubt they could glow as brightly.
    I am in a funk lately.  I hope everyone forgives me.  I just can't seem to get myself out of it.  Seems the thing that always gets me into a funk *relationship*  I am probably the only person in the whole world that is upset when people like them.  I just cant handle it but I don't want to be alone either.   I am so stupid.  I really just don't want to deal with this type of thing.  I am much happier without beleive me.

  • Really tired of all the negative people.  It just seems to bring me down constantly.