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Friday, 20 November 2009

  • rambling

    It doesn't seem like too many people update here anymore.  Or read here for that matter... I'm slowing beginning to feel like I can say anything I want and not offend anyone.... well except maybe myself   I have managed to offend myself a few times just with changing my mind (woman's right) over whatever.
    After a long day at work I like sitting in a room with no sound.  It's nice to not hear anything buzzing.  Although I do have the ceiling fan going.  And the insane mummbing of someone in the living room talking baby-talk to the dog....  Other than that it's a nice quiet.
    I think I'm getting a cold.  My throat is feeling a little soar.  One of our workers had strep earlier in the week.  I hope I'm not getting that. 
    I didn't know Sylph's were part of Wiccan.  I learned that off a facebook quiz the other day.  Thought it was just a cloud being etc.  Didn't realize it was part of any religion.  Sometimes I wonder who names things.  I know they were all people being named.  Like in Genesis (christian bible duh) it says man named everything.  But I mean who really named it.  Like Joe Bob from down the street made up a name for a flower.  Like scientists make up names of diseases.  Like you can buy a star to name for christmas.  That type of thing. Who named a Sylph a Sylph?  I'm sure it wasn't Joe Bob from down the street.  I don't know any Joe Bob's by the way...
    If I was going to name a cloud being I would have to name it something else...  And who said a ghost's a ghost and a demon's a demon...  What about faeries and grimlins and angels and gnomes.  What's the difference in a gnome and a little people?  And what was up with the oompaloompas?  Who said they had to be orange?  And why so short?  Couldn't they be an oompaloompa even if they were tall?
    I think naming a star would be cool.  I'd name mine something awesome.  Like blazing inferno...  If I was going to name a pig I'd name it Big Bertha. 
    My favorite name for pet would be George.  I don't know why.  Oh yes I do that was Grapes of Wrath reason...
    I'm tired that's why I'm rambling on about names.  I'm ready to go to sleep and dream about something wonderful.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

  • I'm rereading Twilight because I didn't get my amazon books in soon enough.  I also figured I want to see New Moon at theatre so I am rereading because of that as well.  I should probably not reread.  Didn't like the movie because it was so different.  Wonder if it will make a difference. 
    I'm tired and sleepy tonight.  Thinking of knocking out early tonight.  It's always early don't let me fool you.

  • dream

    I was dressed as a peasant girl.  Some strange looking clothes though.  I don't think I've ever worn any stockings with stripes on them before.  Or a old tyme turn of the century dress either for that matter.  There was a prince going to school at the same place I was working.  He was very popular with the ladies.  I went to pay tribute.  But he kept getting the wrong idea.  He thought I wanted to sleep with him.  I bowed down on the floor and left my petals and sweet smelling leaves for him.  As I aught to but he infuriated me because he kept coming back to his bare chest arms and legs.  And my mouth would open and I'd say my say and completely ruin the tribute and have to start all over again.  He traveled to Time Square to visit his mother.  Which was Queen don't ya know and another lady very sexually inclined gave a little more than her fair share of tribute.  She was riding a llama and I thought for sure that instead of the regular flowers and leaves and sweet smelling things being left that the llama would leave a turd. 

    Did I mention this guys name is Jacob.  I'm seriously going to have to consult a physician if I keep dreaming of Jacob.  It's my own fault though.  He visited the store the other day and I've been trying to figure out why ever since. 

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

  • dream

    I dreamed of an elephant walking threw the desert on top of stones high in the air.  I was fallowing him to snap a picture but each time I got close he wasn't there.  The trees and leaves and vines kept growing and I was lost but traveled on.  (this started sounding like it was rhyming for a minute   )  The elephant kept traveling on.  I found my way back out and into another hole in the earth.  It was filled with rivers and vines flowing into the earth. 

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

  • This is some Questionaire, Quiz, Tag thing that TheGodfatherofGreenbay did.  As I'm not really sure if it's suppose to be a 25 facts or weird facts or just stuff about you post I'll just throw up some numbers and sentences together and go with that.


    1.  I'm very influential.  You can pretty much convince me anything and everything is true if I trust you.  If I don't everything that comes out of your mouth is a lie and there's always going to be an ulterior motive.  What makes me trust someone enough to beleive every word they say?  I have no idea.  So I guess there's some cosmic coin being tossed up somewhere that says "yes" or "no" as far as that is concerned.  Maybe the correct word is more like gullible?

    2.  I took in school the same science class twice, the same pre-algebra class twice, and the same algebra class twice.  Same book different teacher and different grade.  You would think doing the same things twice would have given me a better shot at getting better grades but since I was in a deep depression around that time I didn't learn a thing although I passed each course.  I did all this because I moved so much. 

    3.  The first time I was accused of being gay was in my science class.  The girl thought I was looking at her too closely.  She had the prettiest clearest blue eyes I'd ever scene.  I was in 8th grade.  I'm not gay. 

    4.  I didn't understand what a period was until after having my period.  No one ever told me anything about it and despite seeing the video in 5th grade I didn't understand a thing.  I even stood up for my best friend when she was accused of having one.  Even not knowing what one was I knew my best friend didn't have one.  Because it was something "bad" I knew she couldn't possibly be involved.  Now of corse I know it's not something bad or good just something women and girls go threw.  By the way it was 6th grade and of corse the obviously white pants...  and that best friend wouldn't tell me what was going on even then.  I was dumb enough to need it spelled out to me by my mother and my best friends mother.  Since my mom had already gone threw menopause we were not prepared. 

    5.  I lived in ky for 3 years.  I was bullied horribly.  I had a calendar that had "D day" written on it.  D day was suppose to be the day I would run away.  It kept getting pushed back.  I planned on hitch hiking back "home" down the interstate.  When I actually did runaway I walked halfway across town to a friends house only to be picked up by my parents.  I was responsible.  I brought my school books and trumpet along so I could still go to school the next day.  Only I didn't I found myself in a mental institution. 

    6.  One of my teachers at the mental institution (i'm affectionately calling it that it was really a kind of rehabilitation center)  actually gave me a lovely letter to remind me to "read the directions" everyday.  It was on red cardboard paper.   I went to school the rest of that year with recovering drug addicts and suicidal people.  I was also hypnotized and thought to have been raped.  Which wasn't true...  I was just a mixed up kid with very impressionable tendencies... see number 1.  Ihave to be careful with my mind.

    7.  I like the thought of aliens and things you can't explain.  I like the thought of ghosts and spirits existing.  I like nessie and dinosaurs and all kinds of things like that living in the same spear as myself.  I saw a show on tv where they might be able to make a chicken dinosaur with a tail.  I think it would be cool to see but also scarey if things went wrong. 

    8.  I tried really hard when I was in high school to loose my virginity.  My entire senior year was filled with plots and skemes.  I was a virgin until I was 28.  For some reason that was a major thing for me.  After I lost it I wanted to go back.  I identified too much with my non-sexuality.  I hear if I wait 7 more years I can revert back to being a virgin.  Not that i'm trying either way lol  but if I don't have sex for 2 more years or 3 (i'm not exactly sure how old i am now) i might just call myself virgin again. 

    9.  I eat out more that half my meals.  I seriously have an addiction to fast food.  I should really stop the food fest but it really is hard.  I use to think that people were crazy to call that an addction but now i know.

    10.  I played in the Macy's Thanksgiving Parade when I was in college 1998. 

    11.  1999 seriously sucked as far as relationships went.  I was insane.  Why would anyone think they were in love with someone who tried to kill them?

    12.  I use to travel a lot.  Now I travel very little.  I've been to nyc, washington d.c., new orleans, orlando, grand canyon, berlin, and i'm sure more than i can't think of now. 

    13.  I'm afraid of storms.  I have panic attacks.  I thought I only had panic attacks during storms and air plane flights but this past month I realized I'm branching out to fairis wheels.  So my only guess is situations that keep me from having control.  I'm now wondering if I was having panic attacks during some realationships....  Actually I'm really thinking now I did.

    14.  I have absolutely wonderful dreams sometimes.  I also have terrifying dreams that feel like I'm dying in some way only to finally get threw the mess to experience love like I've never known before in real life.  I truely beleive that sometimes dreams can take you to an entirely new realm in this world.  Perhaps that's where my other half is...  would be terrible not to know that love in this world. 

    15.  I don't like those earrings that people are wearing now that leave the open holes in their ears.  They are very unattractive.  But most of the people I've talked to with those holes have been pretty nice people.  I just think they made the wrong jewelry decisions.

    16.  I have a tattoo on my boob.  Another mistake of 1999.

    17.  I love reading books.  Especially right now the paranormal romance novels...  I'm actually rereading twilight now.  Getting ready to watch New Moon when it comes out.  Although I hated the Twilight movie I really liked the book but since I watched the movie I feel I must watch the New Moon movie too. 

    18.  I've worked at my current job for 10 years.  I worked at the job before that for a year.   The job before that a year.  And the job before that 2 weeks.  I hated everyone of them for one reason or another.  I love staying at home though.  But I"m pretty sure if I had my perfect job I would hate it just because i had to do it.

    19.  I'm really running out of things to write about.  I don't think I'm all that exceptional of a person.  I'm not all that interesting either.

    20.  I love really good food.  :-/  See I'm towards the end of my list....

    21.  My parents are suppose to deed the house to me after they die because I'm the responsible one.  I'm afraid I'll goof the process up though in some way.  I am afraid after they die I'll goof up the safety net.  I really couldn't live without them.  I'm a real flake when it comes to responsibility but i'm the responsible one.  Go figure.

    22.  Sometimes it feels like I won't be here on this earth very much longer.  It doesn't scare me when I usually think of that.  I would just like to be prepared enough to deed my stuff to other people.  I don't like pain though.  Would rather go in my sleep.

    23.  I have heart problems.  Last two days it's been "flubbing" pretty regularly.  Don't think it's really related to the caffine problem either.  Think the doctors loopy and my tickers messed up in other ways.  Not just a caffine fix's problem.  I also have skin irritations. 

    24.  I hate the day after thanksgiving.  I'm actually afraid someone is going to do a terrorist something or other on that day. 

    25.  I've been coming up with a theory all my own.  All the tv shows, news media, and commercials are syncing together.  This past week I've seen I don't know how many things on strokes.  I'm wondering if they have come up with a mind controlling mechanism they are filtering threw the tv in order to control our reactions and things towards things.  I wouldn't call this paranoid because if I was paranoid I'd be turning the tv off.  I tend to think my mind might be able to rise above this influence because since I know and see I might be able to turn that control off.  In any case I think perhaps they are killing us with those little slips into our thoughts.  Kind of like how V has universal health care them.  (just my weird thoughts though)



    Ok i'm threw.  Now someone else do this craziness.